Should I stay or should I go...?!?!?!?

It has been nearly 5 months since I returned from New Zealand and I still believe that I will be able to return there "one day"...I thought it would be much easier and wanted to be back by the beginning of this year...but it turned out to be quite complicated and I did not have enough energy and patience to try to sort all those papers out just via emails....So I decided to stay on the old continent....I was hoping that it will be much easier to find work abroad since we are a member of the EU...but...wrong again....potential employers do not get in touch with you unless you are in the country already...disappointing but not that much surprising...I can either go there with not guaranty of a "proper" job/flat...or try to find a job here....but...you can make much much more money abroad and there are also other priporieties I tend to have which are in favour of leaving my home country....but ....nothing is black and white and I simply cannot decide...I set my own deadline for the final decision (end of February)...so will see how it goes...